Finally I can relax a little bit after yesterday.. Yesterday I felt lost, confused and tired of choosing.
Yday I really wish that someone would just choose one for me.. I dun want to care about it anymore.
BUT.. I know that is not right.. coz If it is not from my heart, I will hurt the other person again.
So I thought carefully and slowly... what are the best decision.. I tried my best not to hurt both parties..
I conquered my fear and say what I think.. taking risks with my decision.
There is a part of me afraid that if one of them forfeit.. in a way I am the one that will be hurt
Coz.. I will think.. am I not worth fighting for? Of course I will act cool if that happened..
But I am glad that they both agreed to my Terms and Conditions.
This is the craziest demands that I have asked for in my life.. =p~
I will have to put in a lot of effort in both of them as well.. Dating 2 person is no easy job!
Both of them have their own insecurities from their point of view.. and it is very interesting to encounter it.
I promise myself these things to myself and to them for fairer judgement:
1. I will not read any of their personal Blogs
2. I will judge them based on their own effort, not based on other external forces
3. I will not compare their talents.. as it is not fair.. instead i will compare the Effort that they put in.
... gile ini di kantor pada makan kerupuk soalnya tadi ada tukang kerupuk lewat...
Gua ini lagi batuk en pilek belom sembuh... cuman bisa liatin en Senyum pas liat mereka makan :~(
Haiz.. but I bought some Caramel banana Chips for my house... If u like it.. Come to my house to get some *WINK*
