Gilee... akhir2 ini gua merasa weak banget..
well.. mostly kalo di office sih.. like last Thrusday and Saturday (I came back for half day)
Gua rasanya mo pengsan begini.. rasanya lemes..
terus tiba2 kadang bisa blank kepala en thought.. what was I doing?
But everytime that happen.. I will try to take a deep breath and pretend that nothing had happen.
Now I feel like I want to disspear.. feel like going back Medan for few days or somewhere that nobody knows me
Just want to be alone.. away from everything that I know.
I don't know what to feel, what to believe or what to think anymore.
everything seems to be contradicting.. my heart, my head, parents, friends' opinion and God's Guidance
which one should I follow? most people will say my heart
But I am afraid my heart is experiencing a temporary insanity
I am NOT a person to make decision with my heart...
It's true that life is about taking risks.. but which risk should I take?
Should I take a White or Black Box? As I don't know which one is better...
I have swallowed my pride..think back all the things.. but still I dun want to decide.
Coz I am afraid of that will the outcome are or what are the Karma will be..
I hand is literrally Shivering... I will stop here..
